Memorial Bench in St Luke’s Gardens for my love

My darling sweet bo I’ve ordered an engraved memorial bench to go in St Luke’s Gardens where we used to sit sometimes between hospital appointments. I have a video taken in May I think of us sitting on a bench, you’re wearing your lovely navy blue polo shirt with a…

Marilyn Monroe & the eternal wisdom of Terence Gibbons

My darling bear I’ve had my first birthday since you went. June 1st. Same day as Marilyn Monroe. Boo boo bi fucking doo. Last year.. I remember it so well.. I got back from one of our fave gigs – Guildford Gag House. I was doing my last stint of…

Super-glue, Goldsmiths & Interstellar.

My sweetest lamb Today I opened a kitchen drawer and found a tube of super-glue you had used only a few months ago to mend the broken bit of the plastic bin I dropped on the floor (Dolly!!). You were so brilliant at calmly mending things whereas I’d get in…

Dr K’s father and the flying horse.

Darling TG I just remembered something I wanted to share with you. I thought about it trying to get to sleep last night and it made me cry but I was comforted by it. When I visited our lovely GP, Dr K, he told me that when he was a…

Emmanuel, Addison Lee & Jesus.

My love I have to tell you about this Addison Lee driver. I was on my way to meet Eileen our accountant and of course you never know who will be driving. That day it was a guy called Emmanuel. We got chatting about this and that: mostly traffic in…

Sri Lanka bombings on Easter Sunday.

Darling love of my life It’s Easter Sunday. April 22nd. The most horrific thing has happened today. Across the other side of the world. There have been mass bombings across Sri Lanka. The victims include worshippers in packed churches in the heart of the minority Christian community in the cities…

Good Friday & the certainty of absolute love – 4 months and 21 days…

My Darling bo I can scarcely believe it’s Easter. It’s been 4 months and 21 days since you left this life. ? It’s a warm sunny day here and the sky is blue. I plucked up the courage to go into St Lukes Church and the Good Friday service had just…

Afterlife, Penelope Wilton, Simon Evans & Paul Tonkinson

My Darling I’ve just watched a new TV series called Afterlife written by Ricky Gervais. We loved watching Extras and the Office over and over again. And laughing our socks off! Anyway, Afterlife is about a man coping with the death of his wife from cancer. I binge watched it…

Guten Tag (s)

Darling TG I went to have some skin tags removed and a mole check today. Not exactly 84 Charing Cross Road is it but I want you to know I’m taking care of myself. Surreal as I stood there in my pants while she checked my back, arms and legs….

We have all the time in the world…

23rd March 2019 Darling bo I happened to catch the end of On Her Majesty’s Secret Service – George Lazenby holds his new wife Diana Rigg just after she’s been shot dead. He tells the policeman who stops by: ‘She’s having a little rest. Plenty of time…. we’ve got all the…

Breakdown cover

My darling Where to start. I got a letter today addressed to you from the AA. At the top of the page it said: Your breakdown cover has run out, but we’d love to have you back. How did AA know? I’d love to have you back. I have broken down….

Sometimes the show can wait. A bit.

Hello my love I just wanted you to know that after a few days of struggling a bit I’ve decided that rather than forcing myself to be ‘strong’ and carry on I’m going to take time out for a few months. I know we always said the show must go…

Valentine’s Day & Rik Mayall

My darling, darling hub It’s Valentines Day. But I don’t feel sadder today than any other day. We used to joke and say ‘it’s gullible consumers day’. I know this next bit is cheesy as hell but you were romantic every day. From the start. We met on 2nd August…

Terry on the Santa Monica sidewalk.

Santa Monica – Jan 20th 2019 My darling I was walking in Santa Monica (I walked a lot which is odd in LA ) and I looked down – it was around 10th and Washington I think – and to my amazement I saw the name Terry written into the…

Providence Saint John’s part two – what becomes of the broken hearted?

Jan 2019 – trip to hospital My baby Where was I? Oh yes. I was telling you about my overnight stay at Providence Saint Johns in a double room with a very lovely lady called Julie. By the time I was wheeled up on my little trolley by a man…

Visit to Providence St John’s Santa Monica – part 1

January 14th 2019 My darling TGWell that was an interesting 48 hours! I woke up with sudden shortness of breath and chest pains so a doctor recommended (insisted) I go to the nearest ER. The front desk at the hotel I’m at ordered a cab and as I’m leaving the…

Can I get a witness ?

My sweet TGOnce I’d settled in to my room at Shutters, I ordered room service. There was a knock at the door and there’s a sweet Mexican lady who delivers my tray. A few nights later I order again (there’s a butterscotch pudding like Angel Delight which is so delicious…

Santa Monica – Rosy Skies Ahead

January 9th 2019 – Santa Monica trip My Darling lamb I’ve decided to go away again to a place I know from the past. Far away from this excruciating hurt. I know people say ‘wherever you go, you’re still there’. But it can’t be much worse than staying here in…

Ken Dodd, June Whitfield and Terence Gibbons – In Memoriam

30th December 2018 My darling Bruce Dessau, the Evening Standard comedy critic and all-round good egg, wrote an In memoriam on his Beyond The Joke website. It’s a roll call of all those in the comedy world who have gone. Of course you are amongst the greats baby: Ken Dodd,…

Barbados part two

My Darling TG While I remember my darling I must tell you about a remarkable thing that happened yesterday (27thDecember).  I needed to get my iphone looked at because after working fine it suddenly needed verification. Something to do with a new software update. So I was restless all night…

Barbados part one and Charlie Brooker

Barbados trip – Christmas 2018 My darling I wake up every morning – often during the night with nightmares about your passing. Even though people say it was good that I wasn’t there, for so many reasons I have mixed feelings about this as I was always by your side…

Gatwick Drones

December 21st 2018 Darling TG I’m at Gatwick airport desperate to get away from this hellish time. Cold Christmas lonely empty. I’m stranded here because of some ‘drone’ sightings. You couldn’t make it up. Fuck this country. Out of the blue I suddenly hear this friendly voice say ‘Abi Roberts!’…

Diana, Victoria and Pauline at Kensington Palace

My darling TG On December 14th I walked up to Nationwide on High St Kensington to change the name on my account to Gibbons. I know it sounds odd but I wanted to feel close to you in any way I can. I told the young guy changing the details…

And Death Shall Have No Dominion.

My sweet love, Wednesday December 12th 2018 was the darkest most unbelievable day of my life – I can’t even bear to say the F word. It’s a haze but I want to share it with you if I can. Brenda Gilhooly came to the flat very early to hold me…

Bruce Dessau’s obituary for you my darling TG

10th December 2018    Bruce Dessau wrote a wonderful obituary with notes I sent him which I shared on Facebook.   Thank you Bruce. X  Terence’s obituary by Bruce Dessau  

A Captain’s Tale – Terence Gibbons (Terry) becomes a film star aged 17

6th Dec 2018 – Facebook post My darling boy was cast in this film The World Cup: A Captain’s Tale. He was aged just 17. If you scroll down the cast list you can see Terry Gibbons! Sadly no photo but it’s him. I’ve got a copy of it. He’s…

Deborah Frances White comes to the rescue

6th Dec 2018 – Facebook post In the immediate aftermath of losing my darling Terence I got a few messages from DEBORAH FRANCES WHITE asking if a) I was home and b) was I allergic to anything/vegan. Eventually I get home. Then after about 20 minutes the door bell rings….

The whimpers of loss

5th December 2018 – Facebook post I never thought grief would be so physically painful. It feels like a vice around my heart and tummy. Also food doesn’t taste of anything and believe it or not my appetite is zero. Also I am able to laugh but I don’t feel…

All hail Philip Jeays – the comedy community shows its love for one of its own

5th December 2018 – post from Facebook This is love and kindness at its very purest. Thank you Philip Jeays from the bottom of my broken heart. I shall pay it forward when the opportunity comes.Just.. thank you so much.Mrs Abi Gibbons ? justgiving.com Read Phil’s storyPhil is raising money to…

Dear Friends – my heart is broken

30th November 2018 – Facebook post  Dear friends, I am completely heartbroken. My darling husband Terry passed away suddenly on Wednesday morning. They think it was cardio-respiratory failure. He was being treated for cancer at the wonderful Royal Marsden and the tragic irony is that his latest scan showed that he…